This is not the year-end post I had envisioned, but as we know, life doesn't always play out the way we'd like it to. It can change in a matter of seconds by something we never even see coming, like a cancer diagnosis or sometimes, by a force we do see, but simply can't avoid quickly enough.
Which is what happened to me and my family this past Sunday while on our way to a tree farm to cut down our own Christmas tree. It's sort a tradition, started about four years ago, only this time we never got there.
While driving on a narrow, curvy two-lane road with a slight incline on our side and a lake on the other, from around the next bend came a car already swerving out of control. Like something from a chase scene in a bad movie. Very surreal, watching it speed side to side, heading toward the wire guardrail on the lake side, thinking we can get past this, only to realize that was not to be, as the 17 year-old driver spun the steering wheel and careened straight into us. With no where to go, we took the impact.
I remember seeing the front of his car crash into ours, the unforgettable sound of crushing steel, the white of an airbag, then silence for a split second before the sound of my children's cries.
The four of us walked away. My children, thankfully, completely fine with a new appreciation of mom and dad's fanaticism regarding seat belts. My husband and I took more of the force, being in the front, but despite bruises and the sorest ribcage one girl could ever imagine, we're okay. We are thankful. It is clear how much we could have lost in those moments.
There's more I want to write, but I'm tired and my thoughts are scattered. I just wanted to touch base with our cyber community and wish everyone a wonderful holiday season and an even better new year.
I want to thank you for sharing my stories and experiences in 2011, especially being there when I had to say goodbye to my boy, Goliath. Ironically, the car we just lost was purchased two months after getting Goliath, with the intention of driving around with our new big dog. Weird to think we've lost both in such a short time. In 2012, we'll need to figure out how we are more than the sum of a car and a dog.
Perhaps there's some greater meaning to it all, but right now, I can't imagine what that is.
I don't want to be a Bloggy Downer, that's not my intention or how I feel. I'm grateful we're all still here, getting ready to welcome a new year of wondrous possibilities. I look forward to catching up and continuing to read all your blogs.
I'm sure I'll have an interesting thing or two to write about next year. Upcoming visits with my oncologist and breast surgeon, not to mention, the possibility of saying goodbye to my plastic surgeon. Assuming neither implant shifted upon impact the other day. Things are feeling a bit off.
Stayed tuned. I'll see you in 2012.
Be well and stay safe!!